Legion Skit Practice for FOC
I guess that is the most significant thing that happened today. Just gave Addy a call. It’s always good to just talk about nonsense and stuff when everyday seems to be full of work. Well, work doesn’t mean like doing stuff for CSS or moneymaking stuff. But it also include meeting people you might not want to meet (not because you don’t like them but rather you think that you need the rest and time by yourself more). It’s like the marginal utility function. I am reaching a negative for meet-ups and stuff.
Today is good. Doing the skit and song practice and all. In the beginning when Keenan suggested the idea, it seems ok. Until we heard the song. I was a little more relieved cos i secured the position with the minimal singing and more acting. I think i prefer acting more because, to quote Nick, i had some phobia due to some childhood karaoke contest gone wrong. Felt a little guilty for thinking in such a way when i saw the distraught faces of Angie and Nick at the last meeting. More affected by Angie because she bore the face of a silent refusal and painfully forcing herself to accept it. Felt that i was selfish because i was relieved that i didn’t have to do such a job. All the more then i felt that the whole song was a wrong idea and almost wanted to talk Keenan out of it. Was really thinking of how to put the idea to him without hurting his pride or putting him down for making all of us do it because he has definitely put in so much hard work. But today, everything was better.
After the practice, people were more accepting and comfortable. Because we practiced and knew that we were guided somehow. I thought to myself that it’s a wonder because i was so skeptical just days back. How He proved me wrong. Sometimes we really just have to step out of our comfort zone. And another thing that hit me too - that Keenan mentioned that he felt bad for making everyone do this. The knowledge that he knows that he might be imposing on others all these while affirmed that i might have seen him in a judgemental light all the while, that i needed to tell him what others felt when he already knows it himself. Oh dear Keenan. We are lucky to have people to push us out of our comfort zone. If not, things would never seem as rosy. Just like the time when Mary Our Protector praesidium was around, staying in our, my comfort zone only ensured its closure.
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